Dear Softball,

Dear Softball,

It’s time this intimate relationship we’ve had ends. It’s not you… it’s me. You’ve had my heart for 28 years, and now I need it back, to invest it elsewhere. New experiences, my family, and cheering on everyone else who loves you. Let’s be real, this hasn’t been a monogamous relationship! I share you with millions of others! 😉

You’ve given me a second & third chance. You accepted and understood my change of heart and mind, while granting me so many amazing moments. And more importantly, you gave me so many amazing people.

This last chapter taught me what pure joy was. You allowed me to grow in so many ways with incredible women. You granted me things I didn’t even know I needed. You helped me show a young girl what hard work, dedication and love can add up to, and for all this I’m indebted to you.

You let me go out on a high, surrounded by so many I cherish and I’m grateful. It was perfect. But still, I need to move on.

Our tango on the field has ended, but I won’t be too far away. I’ll share all you’ve taught me with anyone and everyone. I’ll help others love you the way I have, and I’ll be cheering loudly as you grow and give my peers continuous challenges and successes.

For the last time as an athlete, I say Goodbye to you. ❤️

- #38
formerly #8

Opening Ceremonies

Well, we are two games in…. two wins in!! 

Currently, I am on the bus back to the Olympic Village in Tokyo. We rode the bullet train to Fukushima, but we are about 2/3rds of the way threw a 5-hour ride on a normal bus back. Why? I don’t know. But the advantage, it is allowing us to make more memories! Well, at least the back of the bus is… they are rambunctious, but in a good way. It makes the front of the bus laugh quite a bit. I think the most recent roar came from Val beating Aubree in “odds.” We shall see how that bet plays out.

You guys hopefully have seen the games, so I won’t rehash things you can read in the box score. But, man, it has been fun. I was so excited to get the start against Italy. Having been on this stage before, I was able to remember the nerves I had the first time, and remind my teammates that those nerves, emotions and butterflies are worth remembering and using in a positive way. I didn’t have many nerves this time, but rather pure joy. I don’t remember ever being THAT excited for a game… but I am also 38 (in case TV or social media hasn’t let you know that) so there’s lots of things I have forgotten over the years.

Regardless of empty stadiums, we made the most of our 2020 debut. The energy between players is high and contagious. Pitch to pitch, at bat to at bat, we continued to build and get a bit better. That carried into game two, as well. The scoreboard doesn’t show how many good at bats we had. Outcomes do not always tell you if an AB (at bat) was good or not. Moni threw fire, while the defense came up big! Did you guys catch the relay to cut down the run at home?? Holy cow, fire me up!!! I was in the bullpen, but I saw it and jumped so high! Those are the exciting plays we live for (clearly supported by the 10 replays of that play on the start of our bus ride). 

Tomorrow, we are off from games. We will have practice, then watch opening ceremonies from the (Olympic) Village. I don’t know what the decisions will be for athletes at opening ceremonies given Covid. The team has known all along we wouldn’t be able to go to opening ceremonies because we play the next day. This same situation happened in 2004 (good omen?), and while it’s a bummer, we are here to play!! After going to it in 2008, I can attest, you don’t get home until 3:00AM, so being ready to play the next day is next to impossible. Be on the lookout for some pics in our outfits though! We will have our own ceremony if we have to!

I’ve seen some comments about the beds…. Yes, they are cardboard. They were made this way to be sustainable/recyclable… not the other reason the media is hyping up! In regards to us playing on a baseball field, this is the custom over here in Japan. Also, to get back in, we had to combine with baseball, and part of that was making it economically beneficial, which means one field, and sharing! But to the first point… Japan has the best professional softball league, and it’s completely played on converted baseball fields. It’s not a slap in the face, it’s just how they do things here, and to be honest, to play in the Olympics, I’d play in a parking lot (well, that might be a tad exaggerated). We don’t mind. After 13 years, the Olympics have begun for softball, and the six teams here are stoked to showcase our sport.

‘Til next time...

#38

We're all here

We made it!!

There were days I wasn’t 100% sure we would get to this point. I wanted to believe that it would occur, and I know the culture of Japan to know they were going to do all they could to make it happen, but a global pandemic hit. No one knows how to truly deal with that, so there was always a small doubt in the back of my mind.

This team has been so resilient with what we were dealt. The typical Pre-Olympic tour of 2020 was well under way, we were hitting stride, gaining steam, when all was halted. I know I personally thought it might be a few months, and next thing we know, it’s 9 months before we got to take a field together in the red, white and blue.

In the last 6 months, we got reacquainted with one another. I mean who doesn’t change a bit when you quarantine for 9 months! The last 6 months were different. We didn’t travel town to town, city to city, every 3-4 days. We didn’t play 50+ games and interact with thousands of fans as USA Softball typically does. 6 months, 7-8 different cities, but plenty of time on the field this team has gelled and prepared.

Since being in Japan, we played 8 games against teams from the Japan Professional League. Every game was a good one. Some tight scoring, which allowed us pitchers to feel some pressure to keep runners at bay. Some we had our offense rolling. We got a little bit of everything we needed, and by the last game, we were clicking on all cylinders.

Now, we are in the village! Yesterday was so exciting to see everyone get excited to see Tokyo 2020 all over the place, to pull into the village! The excitement to get our credentials, open our apartment doors, it was all so great. Our bags of Ralph Lauren gear were waiting for us in our rooms, and my apartment spent the next 2 hours unpacking, modeling our new clothes and being kids at Christmas! I’m smiling typing this, because it was just such an amazing moment to share with my teammates.

So, we are here. It is here! The Olympics are upon us. We get to get our feet wet in the village today, before getting back on the field tomorrow.

The TV schedule is out! Check USA Softball’s social media to find it and follow our journey! It’s definitely going to be worth following.

Until Next Time… 

#38

Athletes Unlimited, Athletes Run

Happy weekend!! 

I am 3.5 weeks into one of the most amazing experiences in my life. Daily, I am mind blown at what comes our way, whether it’s an energized practice with athletes I would never have played with, a new presentation to help us grow as adults, or the presentation from our Diversity team that allows us to talk openly and candidly about what we’ve experienced over certain topics. I wake up each day knowing I am going to grow a little more from some interaction, and that’s an awe-inspiring feeling. This is truly athlete run, and they’ve thought of everything. Shout out to the Player Executive Committee for all your hard work since the inception of this concept!!

When I was first approached with the idea of Athletes Unlimited last winter by Amanda Chidester, who had heard the presentation while we were on the road with Team USA, I quickly dismissed it with a “Hell No” because my plan was to hang the cleats up in July, and I couldn’t fathom being away from my family for 6 weeks (1 training, 5 playing).

But, as for all of us, 2020 had other plans, and it became apparent that I needed to be part of this new venture to get innings and game experience. Even after hearing the official presentation, I was still hesitant because of my family. I knew with the pandemic, the likelihood they could visit was minimal. I was torn between what I love to do and who I love to live my life with. Thankfully I have an extremely supportive husband, who asked me every day if I had committed to Athletes Unlimited yet, and if I hadn’t what I was waiting for. He was 100% on board, and that helped me to know the 6 weeks might be long, but all would work out.

Boy have I been blown away!! What I didn’t expect is to be having the time of my life on the field. I have always loved playing, loved pitching, but this experience brought out more… more that I didn’t know I had inside. The smiles are genuine. The emotions for everyone else’s success is from the heart. And all the conversations are intentional and being soaked up. I have met and played with so many women, that I would never have crossed paths with. I have learned and heard stories, that open my eyes to who someone is off the field. I also believe I have made some friends that will continue beyond these 6 weeks. These are all things, that I make this so incredible, and I couldn’t have imagined coming to with this experience. 

Living in the shield almost makes us savor our time together, on the field or at programs, more. We all are excited to get together, to see each other’s faces, and interact. Personally, I’ve gone out of my comfort zone to have conversations, to stay and hang out well past my bed time, and it’s paid off.

The softball side is great too, but it’s everything else that is making this experience so cool. The silver lining of 2020, is that this provided such an incredible platform for all 56 of us to play on and experience. It’s not over yet, but it’s already exceeded my wildest dreams.

Follow along this week… today on ESPN3, Sunday on ESPN2, and Monday on CBS Sports!

‘Til next time…

#38

My Perspective on COVID-19

It’s been too long... way too long!

2020 came, and boy has it made its presence. Let’s recap January-March before we get to our current situation. January meant I scaled back to part time at Texas State, which took me off the field, and handling the logistics of their travel and meals. This was necessary for me to be able to train myself, as well as, give the program the ability to let Paige McDuffee (UCLA product) take over the pitching coach duties for the year. The end of January saw RBI host its annual banquet, and raise more funds than we ever have! It’s always a fun night to see so many University of Texas graduates, but it’s also exciting to see how much we raise and know more and more kids are going to get to experience all that RBI Austin offers and grow within our program.

After celebrating RBI, I was up and off to Florida the next morning. I met up with the team in Florida, and began training for what was our goal of the 2020 Olympics. We spent approximately 10 days practicing, sometimes twice a day, while lifting and conditioning. It was hard work, but from experience, I know these are the moments we remember and grow together.

Our first leg was 26 straight days on the road. We played 8 games in Florida, before heading to Arizona and then Palm Springs, CA. Each day we were getting better and better. Each game out someone was progressing with their game, and it was fun to see and be part of. Personally, I enjoyed playing against my Bobcats of Texas State! It was such a mental test, because they cheered for every foul ball, every ball they watched and contact made. By far, that is the best energy I have seen out of them, and I told them as much after the game. When you can compete with that energy consistently, big things are in store!

Leg number two of the Stand Behind Her tour was cut short. We played a double header in Irvine before being rained out in Santee. After that, we suspended tour due to COVID-19, which brings us to the current state of affairs.

I have been home since March 12th, and preparing for the news we got this week. A postponement of the Olympic Games was inevitable. We don’t know how safe it would be, even in 4 months. Also, so much training is being impacted by the closures and shelter in place procedures. You have to think about all the sports, all the countries… and this is the best solution. I’ve done quite a few interviews on this throughout this week, so you can find more information on my thoughts via the lovely internet.

These times we are in are unprecedented. It’s new, different, frustrating, boring and challenging… for all of us. No one is alone in what you are feeling. I have had to get used to a new normal too. I can only workout so much, therefore many hours of my day are left wondering what to do. I urge you to be active each day, even if it’s just a walk, pick up that book you’ve always wanted to read or give a go at that hobby that has always sounded fun to try. While we have the time, get that “honey do” list done. Personally, I am trying to finish the first Game of Thrones book, while starting to plan my Softball School lesson for April 23rd. We will finally hang movie posters and my many Wonder Woman pieces up in the media room tomorrow. Last night, we even enjoyed dinner outside on our patio for the first time. Why does it take us being quarantined (so to speak) to do enjoyable things? Because we get too busy, too consumed… now is a time to slow down, smell the roses, and remember the simpler things that make life great.

Tuesday I had the privilege to jump in a morning Bible study via Zoom and share a short version of my testimony and share how my faith and God are leading me right now through this time. It was the first time outside of an RBI event, that I have ever “talked Faith” with a group, and I loved every second of it. My energy and passion grew the more I spoke! It was such an incredibly fulfilling feeling to share His message with others. 

I have used Zoom more in the last week than ever in my life!! It is an easy way to connect though. From my Team USA teammates to some of my Texas State players to my fellow coaches, I have gotten to see everyone’s faces, and that makes my heart happy.

The future is uncertain, but that is ok! It’s always uncertain if you think about it. Keep your head up. Keep working toward something. Most importantly keep perspective and help others if you can! Go grocery shopping for someone or donate to your local food bank if you can. 

Until next time…. Keep the faith and keep perspective!

#38

Two Thousand Nineteen

2019... I’m sad to see you go. You started with the most emotions I’ve ever experienced. Anxiety and nerves of January tryouts to relief and excitement of seeing my name on the 2019 roster.

You allowed me to see my best friend TWICE!

I’ve seen important people say ‘I do’ and ‘Yes!’ I’ve watched my little sass-a-frass grow, dance and even take to pitching.

We saw Macchu Picchu, and Joey turned 40 in style with best friends.

You’ve given me life... I’ve experienced so much in the last 12 months.

Along the way, you’ve taken my heart and mind on a crazy ride. From doubt and frustration of getting back into the groove at age 36, to elation of big strikeouts and wins, you gave me everything I could dream of.

2019, you made me love again... you made me smile... you brought me people who I have fun with. I am excited about what 2020 will bring myself and my family (in all facets), but 2019, you were special, very special!!

#38

THE Purpose

Hello again…

I know I took longer than normal to write again, but life happens!!

Team USA finished up the 2019 season in Japan, where we captured the Japan Cup. It was a fun trip. Even though we had gold on our minds, we had a lot of time to hang out as a team. We spoke at an American High School one afternoon since our practice was rained out. It was fun to have them ask so many questions and hear all my teammates’ answers. The summer flew by, and I still am learning new things about my teammates each day!

The month between coming home from Japan and tryouts, I went back to work at Texas State. It was exciting to see my girls’ faces again and share a little bit about my summer. Some of the best moments, when not on the road, are sharing the experience with my athletes. There are so many things, on and off the field, I dealt with this summer, that I can share. Off the top of my head, nothing is REALLY like riding a bike. I won’t use that analogy anymore, lol. Your mind is really your most powerful tool, and when in doubt, you have to believe in yourself before you can believe in anything else.

In the month home, I kept busy. I was in the weight room 3 times a week and running 2 days a week. I met Danielle Lawrie’s challenge to do 7-straight days of the Peleton. It was a great challenge. Seriously, I am glad she and I share things because it’s a comfort to know that what we experience is similar. She obviously has her hands fuller than mine with two children, but let me add 8U softball to my calendar! My step-daughter began playing softball this fall, and I volunteered to assist the team. It’s a new challenge, but it’s so fun to see how excited they get just to make a good throw or make contact with the ball. One mom asked me at one of the first practices, “did you ever think you’d be doing this… pitching to 8-year-olds?” I chuckled because no, I don’t think I ever predicted that in my life, but boy am I glad it’s happening. It’s also fun to watch Bracken (my step-daughter) pitch. She’s pretty good for 8 and having practiced maybe 10 times. Everything she does, she learned from watching, which is another great reminder that kids are ALWAYS watching. She was even licking her fingers between pitches. Lol.

I’m the biggest Astros fan there is... I grew up watching Biggio & Bagwell take the field.... tonight, my childhood dream came true!! Appreciative of the time for a quick photo. This is going up on a wall.

I also got to check off a Bucket List item before I left for OKC. I was fortunate to be invited to the Nolan Ryan Foundation dinner and met my two childhood heroes, Craig Biggio and Jeff Bagwell. I actually met Biggio once before, when he caught a first pitch I threw out, but to see them both (and get a picture with them) was a dream come true!! Yes, I still fangirl over people!

Tryouts were the first week of October, and the week was so emotion-packed. Pitchers only threw 2 days, and I was the last one on our list. So, after drills on Wednesday, I got a lift in and watched everyone play… then Thursday I watched everyone play, then got to pitch that night. Friday was a repeat of Wednesday (minus the drills) and Saturday I brought it home, throwing the last game of the tryout. I felt good mentally and physically at tryouts. Not sure I threw my best, but it was good in my opinion. Then we were left to wait until Sunday morning.

Sunday was nerve-wracking. My roommate left the hotel, to be by herself to process the news when we got it. I totally understood, but I was sitting in the room with no idea what to do. I ended up going through my morning routine of reading the Bible, my devotional and journaling. A little before 8:30 I sent out a few texts to teammates letting them know my thoughts were with them, and then I waited! 8:30 came, and first I saw my roommate’s, Ally Carda, name on the list. I shouted, even though I was alone in my room. Then I went back to the email to see my name.

 As has been reported, I opted for the Family Group text to share the news. I then called my husband, but he was still asleep!! Seriously, how are you sleeping when you know your wife is getting big news?? I thought my dad would be golfing, so I called my mom and talked with her until I saw the email that said we needed to go downstairs to a meeting.

It was absolutely awesome to be there together and share the emotions of finding out who made the team. We have never done that before, and I think watching all of us rush to hug and congratulate everyone as they came down was just the coolest thing.

This group is special, and my heart is so full as we go our own ways for a bit. To say this journey will be exciting is an understatement. I really can’t wait to write this chapter of USA Softball with these 17 women.

We spent two days meeting and getting photos and media spots done. We had team dinner where we got to kick back and enjoy each other’s company. It’s really is fun to learn everyone’s stories and start to gel as a team.

Before heading home, I had brunch with Lauren Chamberlain. She and I were roommates in January, for 2019 USA tryouts. Even though we were teammates with the Pride, we weren’t that close. Since January, this woman has inspired me but also become a great friend. We caught up on life over great food, and it just made me realize that it’s totally worth it to take the time to see people who bring the good stuff to your life.

I got back on the grind today, working out and throwing. It will be a fun transition into training for THE purpose now. But, I also look forward to the 8U practices and games, a few appearances I have lined up, and being able to be HOME. After all, home is what makes all of this possible.

#38

It’s a process

Well another month has come and gone, and summer is technically over, as school starts Monday. However, I am hitting the road again. I am in the Austin airport, as I type, for the first leg of our trip to Japan for Japan Cup. As always, there’s never enough time at home. Just as I got settled in, it was time to pack up again. I am glad I had time to wipe the DVR of Bachelorette and Bachelor in Paradise, my guilty pleasure TV shows, haha. (I knew what happened on the Bachelorette but wanted to view the last 2 episodes myself).

Our last trip began in Lafayette. I always joke about not liking Lafayette, but it’s only because of the intense rivalry between Texas State and UL. I actually really enjoy when we go there. The fans love their Cajuns, but man they love softball. The turnout for our 3 games there was awesome, and their faithful fans cooked for us! I will take Crawfish Etouffee any day of the week when it’s homemade!

After Lafayette, we headed to my hometown! I love when we play in Houston. My parents still live there, but I also get to see a number of friends, teachers, coaches, etc. from all the different parts of my life. My freshman basketball coach and high school AP came to watch! I saw my cousin, his wife and their daughter in the stands. One of my best friends from high school brought his family, complete with two littles ones who were cheering me on! When the going gets tough, the reminder of who is in my corner always gives me the push I need to get through it and relish this journey. I never take for granted the people who are in my life.

After each game we have our autograph session. In Houston, it was fun to hear girls tell me their mom played with or against me. I also got to meet the cutest little girl, who just happened to be named after me! That’s a first! I almost didn’t believe them at first, and then I met this precious child, and she told me the same thing!! It’s crazy to realize just what the sphere of influence can do.

While in Houston, photographer Jade Hewitt took some amazing photos of my step-daughter watching me pitch. I have sited a few times, that she is part of my why, and it’s the truth. I want her (and other young girls) to see what hard work looks like. I want them to see hard work pay off, and I want them to see, there are no limits (age, gender, etc.) that can hold you back. If you want to accomplish a dream, set your sights and GO!

The team flew from Houston to Lima, Peru for the Pan American Games. These games are a similar set up to the Olympics, where we stay in a village with other athletes from all the Pan American countries.  It’s always fun to people watch and guess what sport others are competing in. Some of us pin traded more intently than others! I did not get too involved in the trading, but I did get a Jamaica pin, which was the highlight of pin trading for me.

I love being part of this group, as they show love, loyalty and grittiness daily.

We played 5 pool games, winning all of them. Personally, I pitched against Puerto Rico, and felt pretty good. It’s still taking time to get the endurance I need to meet my standards for 7 innings, but every outing is a chance to improve, reflect, and learn. I was given the ball for our semi-final game vs Canada, and I can’t report the same feeling as I had for the PR game. The interesting part of this journey is having to re-learn things, especially mentally and emotionally. Four years out of the circle means 4 years my mental toughness wasn’t tested or my emotions weren’t fluctuating up and down due to my performance. All this is natural responses, that over time you learn to harness, control and work with. I guess I assumed it would come back naturally, but that assumption was off. It’s a process… as much as I don’t want to admit it is… it is. I am learning to trust that process, and know, I am getting better, even if it’s only a little step at a time.

The biggest thing I have learned to embrace is this team I am part of. I love being part of this group, as they show love, loyalty and grittiness daily. After losing to Canada, we bounced back with two wins to earn the Gold! This team, no matter what, goes to battle with and for each other. When I felt like I had put us in a hole, they had my back, and performed amazingly on the final day. I’ve mentioned a few times, how fun this journey is, and even in the midst of adversity, it was fun!

For the first time, I had time to stay and be a tourist. My parents and husband flew to Lima to watch the games, and then we flew to Cusco and journey to Machu Picchu. I will say, if Machu Picchu interests you at all, you need to make the trip to go!! I get absolutely no kick back from this next statement, but we used PeruForLess and our whole touring trip was planned and executed with ease!! We saw Cusco Sacred Valley, an animal rescue, and of course Machu Picchu itself. Our guides were so knowledgeable and taught us so much. Our first guide, Rodney, was awesome, and knew tricks to take pano pics that showed you in 3 different spots of the view you were capturing! Fredy took us to see bears, goats, wildcats and Condors that have been rescued from either the wild or as illegal pets. We saw how they rehab Condors to fly, so they will be ready once they can release them back into the wild. Peter, he didn’t skip a detail when he walked Machu Picchu with us. Seeing the different stone work, the different tiers, and the history he had studied made the place come to life.

The Incas were an incredible group of workers. The way they cut stone and built their sacred buildings and cities are just incredible knowing the bare minimum they had during that age. Imaging transporting some of these massive stones is just impossible, but they did it. Like I said, plan a vacation and go see it!!

In the week home, Texas State moved our freshmen into their dorms, and hosted our annual Welcome Back dinner for all our families. It warmed my heart to see my kids again, and get to be part of both events. Even if it was just a short trip, it was nice to be in my own bed, in my own office, and getting back to what normal has been for me.

I look forward to this last trip of summer 2019! Maybe, just maybe, Val won’t accuse me during Mafia… and when we fly home, I bet we have more moments and memories to add to this summer.

Ta-ta for now!

#38

My Pitching Story

My story (inspired or asked for by Amanda Scarborough on Instagram):

I actually quit softball after 1 season in 1st grade. Two leagues had split and we had 1st-5th graders playing together, and it was kids pitch.

When I was 10, I wanted a change from soccer and my dad suggested I try softball again. We signed me up for Bear Creek Little League. Being left handed and inexperienced, I was ‘playing’ outfield. Due to rain outs and pitching rules, our pitchers had used up their innings. Our coach asked who wanted to pitch... I volunteered, and I struck someone out. I asked my dad for pitching lessons for my 11th birthday and he granted it! The rest (with a lot of hard work and failure mixed in) is history!

I love our game, but I love working to perfect the art of pitching more. Pitching is what I truly fell in love with ❤️ What got you started? What do you love about it?

The greats work hard when it’s hard to work

Where to start…

There have been so many times I’ve thought of blogging over the last month, but to be honest, I don’t think I ever had enough time to put all my thoughts in order. That being said, I am going to do my best to cover as much as I can without writing a full-blown novel. 

I know I never really used my own avenues to explain the decision to return to the field. I let Graham Hays, ESPNW, to break the story, as he has always been a huge advocate for softball. The decision for me was not a long thought out process. Long story short, Kelly Kretschman was in San Marcos visiting, she told Coach Woodard she thought I still wanted to play. Days later, Coach told me if I wanted to try and go for 2020, we would make it work. I’m not lying when I say, I had not thought of the idea for a while, but my heart jumped when I heard those words. I got home, discussed it with my husband, and it was decided. This was in October 2017, so a year and 9 months later, I am completely happy we made this decision. It was a team decision, and I am so fortunate that I have a husband, step-daughter and massive amounts of family and friends that support our decision. It’s been pretty awesome to have the tribe of people in my corner that I do!

In May, USA Softball had our Gold Gala fundraiser in Oklahoma City.

Leading up to June, the most nerve-wracking unknown for me was how would I fit in or get along with the women on the team. A good number of them have been on Team USA for a few years, so there is a bond. Monica and Shelby Pendley were the only two athletes I have ever been on a team with. Val Arioto game into the USA program the last year I was part of it. So, my familiarity with the team members was limited. In May, USA Softball had our Gold Gala fundraiser in Oklahoma City. This was a great opportunity to not only meet, see and hangout with teammates, but we also got on the field together a bit. I was soaking up all opportunities to chat with my new teammates. The transition in joining this team was so smooth. I can’t say enough how welcoming and accepting this group was.

Personally, I can’t put into words what it’s like to be back on the field. I love it! I am having so much fun. The process to getting comfortable and feeling like I used to, was frustrating at times, longer than I wanted, but it was something I had to go through. It’s a reminder to me as a player and coach, to put in the work, trust the work and the process. We are not in control of the length of it! But working towards that, and seeing it play out, that has been FUN.

I can’t put into words what it’s like to be back on the field.

Chicago was where we began. We practiced, we trained, we were learning while trying to be game ready. Before games started, we got the opportunity to be on the field at the White Sox game in honor of Olympic Day. It was a great opportunity to promote Softball being back in the Olympics and showcase Team USA.

We played 4 exhibition games, after only 3 days of being together. This is a quick turnaround to be on the field. Each outing, we were working, improving, learning. Pitching wise, I felt ok. But in my mind, I knew it was first competitive innings for me since August 2015. While I wanted to be in top shape, I knew that’s not how this would happen. However, I was able to feel a little better each outing and take away progress every time.

Then we were off to Japan! I haven’t been on that long of a flight in a LONG time, and I forgot that I rarely sleep on those flights. Thankfully Netflix, movies and some books kept me occupied. Off the field in Japan was an amazing experience. We opened in Sendai, which is close to the area the Tsunami hit in 2011. We took a trip to an Elementary school, that now serves as a memorial to the Tsunami. This school was an evacuation site for many citizens of the area. Everyone that evacuated there was rescued safely, but not before they watched as the Tsunami struck their town. We were escorted to the roof of the school, where the evacuees awaited rescue, and from there they watched as parts of houses, cars, etc. floated away. I can’t imagine what that was like. There were pictures of cars and debris that came through school windows on the bottom floors. The devastation was unbelievable.

After this visit, we visited a Junior High, where they welcomed us with open arms. We introduced ourselves. They asked us some good questions about how to handle pressure and other aspects of life and our game. We did a pitching demonstration for them, and it ended with their yell leaders leading a cheer or chant for us. It was an afternoon full of plenty of smiles on both sides.

Playing in Japan was amazing. The crowds were awesome. They love softball there, and it is always on display. Our 3rd game had over 22,000 people in their Tokyo Dome. That’s just mind blowing!

You guys all got to follow and watch International Cup!! It was a great week, where we could feel ourselves growing together each day, each game. It was a blast to be part of. I hit my stride in the circle. The feeling of the ball coming off my fingers was like days of old. It’s crazy the emotions you get when things finally click. When the last out was made on Sunday, I almost cried. I think I’ve only cried over the ending of 3 games in my life, and two of those were not wins. The tears came from deep within. I was so excited to be part of this first Gold with this team.

I am looking forward to getting back with the team soon.

In the last month, we have had 2-a-days a lot, we’ve had double headers, single games, testing… you name it. It was tiring, it was hard, but at the end of every single day, I was so honored to be wearing USA across my chest again and working with 17 women towards a goal. This past year at Texas State, I told my kids “the greats work hard when it’s hard to work.” This is the epitome of the last month. It was hard, but together we conquered it.

Summer isn’t over. We still have exhibitions in Lafayette and Houston before heading to the Pan American games in Peru. I’m excited to stay a few days past the Pan Ams and see Machu Picchu with my family. We’ll end our summer with Japan Cup in Aug/Sept. I am looking forward to getting back with the team soon.

If there’s one thing I’ve learned from this first month… I have absolutely no regrets in putting the cleats back on. The workouts, bullpens, conditioning (all done solo for the most part) were completely worth being able to represent the Red, White and Blue every day.

Sorry this turned into a novel!

Until next time…

❤️
#38

Journey for Jana's House Part 1

Well we have been back from Africa for over a week. While I was there, I wanted to blog about each day’s happening, but the wifi wasn’t the best, so I didn’t get online via my computer. I simply posted some photos and updates from my phone when I could.

On the way home, I was so anxious to type up a blog, and a number of times I have started to script it out in my head, but I always stall. Why? Because I don’t know if words can really describe everything that went on during this trip. One blog won’t simply cover it either, so this will be multi-pieces. I’ll also do my best to try and convey as much as I can, but there are some things that I think only the 24 of us will be able to understand.

December 26th, 24 of us met at the airport to begin our trek. Our 24 included Jana's husband and sons, their closet friends, Round Rock Express employees and myself. We checked in our bags, bags with baseball/softball equipment, as well as bags with clothes and items for the kids in Lusaka. However, for the first time ever, carry on bags were weighed. Apparently my rolling carry on weighed a lot empty, so after I took out quite a bit of stuff (and put it in my backpack which means that weight was still coming with me), I was finally allowed to go on. Note, this will not be the last of carry-on luggage problems. 

Out of the 24 in our travel party, only 2 of us were flying solo: myself and the Round Rock Express VP of communications Jill Cacic. Thankfully I semi-knew Jill as I have been involved in things with Round Rock Express before, but after this trip, she got a new friend, whether she wanted it or not! ;)  Jill and I buddied up to make sure we weren’t left behind, and good thing we did… we are HDR! (More on that later)

We left Houston around 6:40 and had 14+ hours to Dubai. A few movies, some sleep and a little reading made time go by at a decent pace. Emirates airline takes the cake with Wifi! For $1 (yes you read that right) you get 500MB of data. For the entire flight I could check social media, text with my husband, friends and family, and as we landed Joey even FaceTimed me. AND it worked!!! When my phone was ringing I looked at Chase, who was in the seat next to me, and said “will this work on here?” I almost missed the call because I was in shock.

Solo travelers at the Burj Khalifa

We had a 14 hour layover in Dubai! Dubai was 2 hours ahead of Lusaka still, so we’d be going back in time on our next flight, so we tried to stay awake by making a trip to the Dubai Mall as well as the Burj Khalifa. There was slight scare after we ate dinner, my passport was missing. Thankfully, I went back to our table and it was under my chair. Fell right out of my pocket without me knowing.

Our first real adventure was when we found out we missed the last train back to our hotel! After a lot of laughs and jokes, we found the exit to the train station and hailed 3 cabs. We did our best to explain what hotel we were at, and prayed we made it there! Thankfully, everyone arrived safe and sound. 

The next morning, my lovely roller carry on and I had another fun encounter! Jill shared this encounter too, so we both were battling. Apparently our 2 carryons could only total 7Kg? Or 7 something! My roller bag was a bit over 7, so I took out a book, but the attendant wouldn’t let me through to the gate. I was very flustered… to say the least. I couldn’t understand how we were allowed to travel there with these exact same carry ons but now we couldn’t take them. We were forced to check the bags… mine was free, Jill had to pay for hers. Why? Who knows? I really felt like they just made things up as we went. 

Finally, my backpack, which was never weighed, and I got through, and our group was well on our way to our last flight. However, I didn’t hear the end of my frustration over it for a while. There were bets on if I would end up in Airport jail…. I mean, I may have tried to just walk away from the guy at one point!?

Our second flight was 7.5 hours. We were delayed some because of fog, but I don’t know how long. I think I was asleep before we took off. Around 3:00 PM on Dec 28th, we landed in Lusaka, Zambia to begin what ended up an INCREDIBLE journey!

To Be Continued…

A New Day To Be Thankful

Happy Holidays!!

Welcome to the new edition of CatOsterman.com!

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving holiday and is preparing for a loving Christmas (or other respective) holiday. This time of year is so great, as we celebrate what we’re thankful for and the spirit of giving.

My Thanksgiving wasn’t an overt celebration. My parents came up to our house, and my baby brother came into town. During the small 5 person meal, I kept having this thought in my head that no matter what we do in life, what we accomplish, how much we earn, it’s the people in our life that truly make it amazing. People are your life’s best asset.

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My wedding day with my amazing family!

I’m blessed with an amazing family. My parents have supported me every day or my journey, and let me make mistakes to learn. They’ve never stepped in to change my mind, unless it was going to be severely detrimental, and there hasn’t been any of those situations…. yet. I have two amazing brothers, who ultimately probably sacrificed being better athletes, to follow their sister every where. I still remember the youngest telling his first grade class “oh yeah, well my sister’s famous,” not knowing any better. He was the most well traveled elementary student though, having gone all over the US and Greece before 5th grade. Both of them have been my number one fans. The love we share as siblings, it’s amazing. I’d give my life for either of them. I have an amazing husband, who thankfully gave me a second chance. I was cold hearted and broke up with him 10 years prior to our reconnecting. He’s my better half. He’s taught me what love is, and I have loved like I never though possible. People, they are essential.

My circle of friends grows slowly. I’m not the easiest to let people in sometimes, but that’s getting better with age. The few who know me the longest, have taught me patience, acceptance, unconditional love, and honestly. I look back sometimes and wonder how they put up with me, but at the same time, they remind me there are good attributes I possessed. I’m extremely loyal to those I cherish, and at Thanksgiving, as we celebrated and shared a few texts back and forth, I was reminded that my friendships are what fill my heart. People, they are what makes our world.

As an athlete, or a retired one, I am reminded that fans fall right in with the people who add to your life. It’s awesome to hear stories of a game they attended. It’s amazing how many will go out of their way to show appreciation for being able to throw a yellow ball. My Wonder Woman collection is almost solely fan gifts, and I appreciate every single piece! Recently, a letter from a fan left tears in my eyes, because no athlete begins their athletic career foreseeing any of these types of things unfolding. People are amazing. It’s so unbelievable how giving people are. It’s mind-blowing how loving strangers can be. Again, people make my life blessed.

I’m not saying I am perfect. I am far from it. However, upon writing this blog in my head first, I have tried to be the type of person that I am lucky to have in my life. I want to give, to love, to appreciate, to be an asset to someone else in some form. We all should be. If we all realize people are the greatest gift, treat them as such, we would be much better off. A smile is contagious. A hello goes a long way.

Enjoy your Holidays!!

#8

PS. Speaking of people… thank you to Huy Nguyen, who has designed and maintained my website since the beginning! He came up with this new amazing design that I absolutely love! When life gives you good people, do your best to make them feel appreciated, and in return, they will stick around! I am thankful for all you do Huy, and appreciate all you’ve done and continue to do!

Straight from the Heart

Straight from the heart, here's a little insight into my heart and my journey to find Him again...

“Dear Lord,
Please watch over every athlete that steps on this field today. Please keep us all healthy and safe. We all want to win, and you don’t choose that, but give us the strength and courage to use the talents you blessed us with to the best of our ability. Allow us to see and think clearly as we compete against one another, and be an example for the next generation. We play for the enjoyment of many, but really an audience of one. Please tell Grandma & Grandpa I love them, and let Jay know that I know he had a hand in Joey and I! In your name I pray and play! — Amen”

Some variation of this prayer was said before every single game on my final year of playing to the USSSA Pride. I always wanted everyone to be safe, to have good clean compeition, and to make sure my grandparents knew I was still working to make them proud. You see, my grandma was my biggest fan. I acquired a binder after she passed, in which she kept every email my dad sent while I was growing up detailing my athletic career. Grandpa (from the other side of the family) was watching one of my old games on the night he passed. They both had front row seats as my career came to an end.

Some may ask why that prayer was only said during my last season, and the answer to that is the reason for this post. Up until now, I have been very private with my spiritual life. I believe faith, religion, etc is a personal thing. If you want to share it, by all means we have plenty of avenues to do that. However, I also believe it’s ok to explore it on your own, live by it, and wait until you feel it’s right to share. I’m in the latter group. Although, part of the reason was also the fact I had been wavering in my faith. So the story begins…

I grew up in a Catholic Church. I have been baptized, received communion, made confession, and been confirmed in the Catholic Church. I learned the traditions, attended mass, but I am not sure I ever had a true meaning of everything I was hearing. Don’t get me wrong, I knew the 10 commandments and what was right and wrong, but there’s a bigger picture I see now, that I know I had no concept of when I was younger. Please don't be quick to judge, I was raised right. I just strayed as soon as I could.

As I left for college, I also left the Church. I would attend, sometimes, when I went home. I can remember attending church with teammates a handful of times max. Some teammates would convince me to come to FCA, but again, I was hearing, but not applying. I had questions, but didn’t ask them. I just stayed my course playing ball and going to school. When I was on the National Team, Leah O’Brien Amico would lead discussions about Jesus or parts of the bible. I remember listening, but again, left with questions I was too scared to ask. At this point, I also felt that because I had been gone for so long, that there was really no going back. Boy was I wrong!

In my junior year, I met a young man named Carmine, on his official visit to Texas. He ended up going elsewhere for school, but we’ve stayed in touch ever since. I don’t remember when he started asking or talking to me about religion and God, but he did at some point, without any judgement to the fact I was just "ehh" about it. He was living a life with Christ, and I was watching it from a distance. Slowly, I became inspired by his life, but again doubt crept in because I had been gone for so long. Carmine had a younger brother, Sal, who I had taken to pretty quick after meeting the family. To this day, Sal calls me big sis, so it’s been a strong relationship. I watched Sal transform from a pesky little brat into a strong, faith driven man of God. After watching Sal grow in faith, I was left inspired more than ever. I’d see Sal’s posts on social media, and talk with Carmine every so often. I'm not sure when, but one day I finally told Carmine what my heart was telling me: that I needed to go back. Carmine encouraged me over and over. He gave me books to read, told me what parts of the Bible to start with, and more so told me to go to church… alone. He would check week after week if I went to church. I’m pretty sure a number of times I responded “No, but I’m on chapter 5 of that book and…”

Now enters RBI Austin. I’m approached by my friend Amanda, to meet with Matt Price to hear about what RBI is about and their addition of softball. We have an incredible meeting, and I was so excited about everything Matt said, except faith was the core of RBI, and again, that’s where I lacked. I joined RBI, just focusing on the softball part, but after about a year (and months of Carmine’s encouragement) I decided I needed to dive in to my faith. Matt, Casey and some others had talked about how they want to Austin Stone on Sunday evenings. I went one Sunday morning by myself, to see what the church was all about. It was one of my first non-denominational services. My eyes were opened. The meaning behind what I was hearing was clear, and I am pretty sure I cried more than I ever have over softball or even injuries. We sang, tears came down my face. They were preaching, tears were still coming. I decided I needed to reconnect with God. I went to Church with the RBI group, and they kindly sent me notes from the services I missed due to travel schedules. I felt like a new person when I would leave the church.

It’s been about 4 years since I attended that service by myself, and in those 4 years, my eyes are wide open, and my heart is open even wider. I realized that my talents in the circle were supposed to be used to honor Him and to glorify Him. It may have taken me a while to see that, but I am glad I did before I retired. I truly believe, when you fully trust in his plan, you reap more than you could imagine.

I am pretty sure Joey, my now husband, was shocked when I mentioned church when we were dating. You see, we dated 10 years before, and to paint the picture easily… he went to Easter mass with his parents, while I slept at his apartment. I am pretty sure I saw a look of shock/confusion on his face the first time the word “church” came out of my mouth. However, by the time we started dating again, I had committed to my faith. I knew He has a plan. When my heart was convicted in those beliefs, the Lord laid out the best path I could imagine. He presented me with an amazing job opportunity, where I got to connect with and coach one of God’s most loyal servants in our second baseman, Kelli Baker. To this day, I still love going to work! He presented me with an amazing man, who I passed on before. And finally, he gave me a sense of peace as I decided it was time to hang up the cleats. I don’t think any of that is a coincidence. I think because I came back home, to the Lord, and laid my heart out for him, he allowed things work out.

Now, don't get me wrong. There is adversity God puts us through, and I am sure somewhere on this journey of life, my obstacles are coming. However, I truly believe that when you lay your whole heart in his hands, you gain more than you could ever imagine.

If you feel lost or that you’ve been gone too long, come home! He will welcome you and love you beyond measure. I’m thankful for all of the friends who helped me find my way back home. Carmine & Sal, probably had no idea the impact they had until I asked them if I could write about them. My RBI peers got to see me break down as I shared their part in my walk back during a meeting. I wouldn’t be where I am without any of you, and I know He is watching over all of us. Thank you all, for loving me when I was broken and lost, and thank you for still loving me as I continue to work to ‘walk by faith.’

A Family Legacy

Wow, who knew a late night post could generate so much excitement!?

Well, I always say the universe has put some pretty incredible people in my life, and I will continue to say that until the good Lord takes me away. Granted softball is usually the spoke that connects my wheel of people, and this instance is no different.

In 2010, after being traded to the USSSA Pride, we were to play a series here in Round Rock at Dell Diamond. This was my first encounter with Chris Almendarez, as he was in charge of the event and carted Jennie and I around to different media appearances. The job he did was spectacular, and over the years he has climbed the ladder with the Round Rock Express he is now the President.

Chris' family has open arms to almost everyone! His wife Jana was no different. She was the most lovely woman I have ever met, proud of both her sons and Chris. There was never a time I saw her without a smile on her face. As many of you may remember, last summer Jana was diagnosed with brain cancer. She fought a valiant fight, but passed this past Spring. It is her honor, that I am fortunate to announce this exciting news.

Chris and his family have gone to Family Legacy's DreamCamp in Zambia, Africa, a number of times, and have encouraged me to go. Between surgeries and things already planned, I have never been able to go.

A week ago, Chris gave me the dates, and now I am going!

Two days after Christmas, I will take off to Zambia with the group! My heart has never felt so full as it did the moment I agreed to take this trip with Chris, his family as well as others we mutually know to Zambia, Africa to meet, work with and share about the Lord with children of Zambia. While we are over there, we will also open an orphanage in Jana's Name.

Jana's House will host 12 girls, 10 who have already been identified. It will be fully decorated and ready for move in when we get there.

As any mission trip, funds must be raised. I will be auctioning off some things over the next few months to help with my trip, as well as saving & contributing myself.

However, if you would just like to donate to help with the trip, the link is: https://web.familylegacy.com/zambia/catherineosterman

Donations are tax deductible! There's always a way to help donate to Jana's house if you would like. I've never been more excited as I am about this trip. I know most of you wished it was a come back news, but the fact that I am retired and have time, allows me to do even greater things. I'm being called, and I am answering that call.

Let's join forces. Help me, help others!! Zambia, here I come!